Het feest [der herkenning]

“I think money is a big challenge. I feel pretty lucky that I’ve had a sort of steady following that’s building. I’ve mostly gotten work from people seeing my work and then being asked to do more. I haven’t gotten a lot of things through applying to things. I’m at that stage now where I’m trying to push to the next level. That for me is very challenging. Especially having to wear so many hats. You have to be an administrator. You have to have a business mind. You have to be a good writer. You have to schedule people. And be an artist trying to delve into the depths of the creative process. All of that you have to handle, but it also frees you from going into an abyss at times. But then you also have to be able to be very organized. So, there’s just not enough hours in the day to do things that you have to do and on top of that you also have to have another job. It’s not like that’s paying for everything. Mostly everyone I know has something else that they do. For me it’s teaching.

So, I think that’s it—the exhaustion; trying to hold all those balls in the air. If I could just focus on making the work, it would still be hard but it would also be a lot easier. [Laughs]”